Keeping myself sane.

Do you ever have those days where you feel like being productive but can't find the motivation to do so? Well, today certainly felt that way for me. I seriously think it's the weather. To  be honest, it took me 3 freakin long hours sitting and pondering on what to write! And now, here I am writing non-sense (again)...thanks to my lack of motivation. Let's get this going...shall we?

Have you seen the movie, Up in the Air? I swear, George Clooney may be 48y.o, but man he still makes my heart melt like cheeeeeese. Anyway, I watched it last night with ida and my goodness..I've never been so critical in my life. I need to get things out of my chest. Certain aspects of that movie disheartened me at one point or another. Don't get me wrong, I loved that movie. It's just that, man...Ryan Bingham(George Clooney) is living such a sad..sad life. He fires people for a living. It's just funny because as I was watching it, I was telling myself, "Yeaa-hup. Been there. Done that. Not a fun scene." The point is, only a person who has a hardened heart can handle the emotional stress in firing people. I couldn't even watch the parts where he fires people because a vivid memory haunts me over and over again.

In another sense, the movie is also, in some point, an examination of philosophy. Like basically, if you decide to live your life working/flying in the air for 200 and some days? What if you decide to live flying from city to city with nothing, with nobody? It certainly would be a sad life, in my opinion. Yes of course, you get to travel almost everywhere, get VIP treatments wherever you go, all expenses paid, earning more than the average joe, etc. But there's always a downside on that one...right? Watching that breaks my heart. (ugh..I don't know how to finish this...I'm just being emotional again..bah)

...maybe it's just the weather? Yes, the panda would say so.

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