Note to Self #3:

I WILL NOT BE OVERWHELMED!

photo source: 

http://www.oprah.com/spirit/What-to-Do-When-You-Are-Overwhelmed

Father in Heaven, grant me the strength, wisdom, knowledge and patience (LOTS of it) as I tackle the next 2 weeks. 

I thank you for giving me ALL these opportunities to organize and plan and what-not,although overwhelming,I do know You will be there every step of the way. I am feeling overwhelmed, but I know I'll get through this and You will guide me. I ask that you bless me with good health and a huge amount of strength all through these.  Overwhelmed? Yes. But I will not let it get to me. Anxious? Most likely. Hopeful? I sure am. You do not give us tasks that we cannot handle, so I put my TRUST in you Lord. 

This I ask...Amen.

Philippians 4:13

I can do all things through Christ who give me strength!

*breathe in...breathe out...*

Stay tuned.

Hello 2012!

You told me, Look for You and I will find,

So I'm here like I'm searching for the first time

Revive me, Jesus

Make this cold heart start to move, 

Help me rediscover You

-STARFIELD; REDISCOVER YOU

Happy New Year indeed! Two weeks into the year and man, was it quite eventful! I've been fighting an uphill battle between my self and my longing for God. Two weeks have been brutal but it had it's happy moments. It's been quite eventful I tell ya! 

5th Birthday Cake: compliments to Ida

I celebrated my 23rd birthday two weeks ago and I cannot believe how time flies. I can honestly tell you right now that I do not feel any different, except I feel just a tad bit of pressure of growing up. ( I admit, I am in denial that I am already 23...it doesn't show physically anyway) Ah, but kidding aside, I've felt my little cousins, younger family friends , and those lil kiddos, have quite been looking up to me ever since. It's kind of a nice feeling having people look up to you (again just a tad bit of pressure there). I had an awesome "birth week", with five birthday cakes...come on...who wouldn't?  I thank everyone who sent their birthday greetings and what-nots, but most importantly, I thank God for another year added to my life! I know it's been a rough road lately, but I cannot stop thanking the One who wakes me and gives me breath every single day. Aiyah, fighting!

Hmm what else? I'm also back to school. Yes, after 8 long brain-idling months, I am back to the academic world! I can't explain how giddy I am when I registered, paid and started reading my book. (Book???) Yes, unfortunately though, I am only in one class this semester, but do not fret, I am back full time in the Spring! Just thinking about it makes me really excited for what's to come. (God indeed works in such crazy, and awesome ways)

Besides my birthday and schooling and what-nots, God has been crazy present in my life in these past two weeks. I cannot help but think, "WOW! I'm such a lucky person to know that God is so near and have been working in my life!". In a nutshell, I have laughed, cried, questioned, knelt, prayed, got frustrated, sang, etc, in a span of two weeks. I've never felt so emotional, empowered and hopeful. A week ago, I found myself praying and asking God's presence. Shaking, crying (bawling to be exact), and with all heart all emptied just for Him, I've never felt Him so near and comforting. It's such an awesome feeling. I felt all my worries and all my excess baggage were lifted. 

HOPE. That's pretty much a strong and comforting word that keeps me going every single day. Hope has given me a different outlook in life. Hope has given me this attitude that I never thought I had. Hope has given me the strength, patience, and wisdom I need right now in my life. The song, Rediscover You by Starfield (see excerpt above), is pretty much my song for this year. I hope to keep it close to me and would constantly remind me to SEEK God's will in my life no matter what my circumstances are. 

I am blessed. I am definitely living an o-some-sauce life. 

STAY TUNED.

Total Surrender.

Take what I have known and break it all apart. You my God are greater still.

-Hillsong; The Greatness of Our God

It's such an easy concept to let go and let God but it's difficult to do. It's easy to say "I surrender to you God", but it takes a lot of pushing to actually DO it. 

The constant struggles and hurdles  have been piling up in my life and I  have given up. I am only human and I cannot continue anymore with my human strength. I am nothing. I cannot do this alone. I have given up.

Kneeling on my knees and with arms raised to the sky, I surrendered my ALL to HIM.

I GAVE up.

I gave God total control of my life...and IT FEELS darn AWESOME. (or should I say...o-some?) I cannot explain the contentment that I have in my life right now. I cannot explain how the emptiness was filled by His greatness. I cannot explain how awesome God is and how he is working through me every single day. I am in awe of his awesomeness.

I may still be a work in progress, but knowing that there is a God who looks after me gives me an indescribable feeling (way better than anything else!).